urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chucktaylor9876 chucktaylor9876 chucktaylor9876 2009-05-09T23:18:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:chucktaylor9876:916 2009-05-09T23:18:42Z 2009-05-09T23:18:42Z I really wish that I knew that she could change. Saw a myspace bulletin that she posted saying how lost she was and how she needed a change. The truth is, I'm so lost without her that I don't even care if she changes anymore. I miss her more every day. The pain doesn't stop--it really only increases. I miss my home. I miss my dog. I miss my girl. I just keep sinking deeper into depression. And then I think about the fact that she's going away to Washington in less than a month and my heart shatters. I can't breathe any more without her. I should just get used to the pain. I wish I could be numb to all of this.